Exhausting
Hi Friends,
I am absolutely drained, so this will be probably the shortest entry yet. Being back at work was good because I kept busy and got to see people and it took my mind off stuff for a time today. But it was exhausting, and tomorrow will be even more so, even though I only did 8 hrs. I got a 30 minute break which I spent visiting mom, and she was just finishing up OT. She seemed glad to see me, and I was sorry the time went so fast. I came over after work and she was napping, so I just hung out for a bit, glad she was able to get some sleep. When she woke up, I just told her about my day and stuff, and then her friend Nick called to see if he could come by. He brought her a great framed poster he made of one of the plays she directed while in grad school called "Stop Kiss." The poster for the show is in the middle, and then there are show photos surrounding it...it's great and a wonderful addition to the room. Thanks, Nick!
It was hard to leave tonight...I started saying goodnight and that I'd be back tomorrow, and mom seemed sad I was leaving, and then I started crying, and then she started comforting me just like my mom...I apologized to her and said I should be the one comforting her but that it just made me so sad to leave and that I wished I could just stay all the time...she said, "It's okay, you'll be back tomorrow! It's okay!" I really need to suck it up and stop crying in front of her.
Okay, to bed...another busy day at work tomorrow.
I am absolutely drained, so this will be probably the shortest entry yet. Being back at work was good because I kept busy and got to see people and it took my mind off stuff for a time today. But it was exhausting, and tomorrow will be even more so, even though I only did 8 hrs. I got a 30 minute break which I spent visiting mom, and she was just finishing up OT. She seemed glad to see me, and I was sorry the time went so fast. I came over after work and she was napping, so I just hung out for a bit, glad she was able to get some sleep. When she woke up, I just told her about my day and stuff, and then her friend Nick called to see if he could come by. He brought her a great framed poster he made of one of the plays she directed while in grad school called "Stop Kiss." The poster for the show is in the middle, and then there are show photos surrounding it...it's great and a wonderful addition to the room. Thanks, Nick!
It was hard to leave tonight...I started saying goodnight and that I'd be back tomorrow, and mom seemed sad I was leaving, and then I started crying, and then she started comforting me just like my mom...I apologized to her and said I should be the one comforting her but that it just made me so sad to leave and that I wished I could just stay all the time...she said, "It's okay, you'll be back tomorrow! It's okay!" I really need to suck it up and stop crying in front of her.
Okay, to bed...another busy day at work tomorrow.
Comments
It is soo nice to hear Bev is progressing. Although slow, it is an improvment and you just have to be happy with that for now. I can only imagine how you must feel, as I know you want "your mom" back just the way she was. She absolutely adores you and she is soo lucky to have you!! Keep the faith and know I think of you often and read this blog daily for your messages. It is such a comfort to know on a daily basis how your mom is. Hang it there Amanda! One day at a time for now.
Praying and thinking of you,
Carrie Taylor
wow, i can't even imagine how hard this has been for you, rightfully so for you to be so exhausted. Thank you so much for keeping up so well with this blog, I read it everyday! You've got a lot of strength in you, keep you chin up! Like our friend Dory says, "Just keep Swimming!" Bev is doing great, keep looking on the bright side!
Love,
Jen Steiskal