A little bit of reality
Hi Friends,
I try to give a different title to the blog everyday, and I already used TGIF, but...TGIF!!!!!! This week at work has been just horrendously busy, so I'm very glad to be done with it. One can only hope that next week will be better.
Mom called me during the day while I was at work...I LOVE it. She was in speech therapy this time, and actually when I answered the phone, it was Michelle, the therapist, and she told me mom wanted to call and say hi, but wanted Michelle to call and pretend she was mom. Then when mom got on the phone, she said "Hello..." in a really low voice. It was hilarious, and I said "Mom, is that you? Are you disguising your voice?" And she said "Yes, I'm disguising my voice!" So funny. We chatted for only a few minutes, it wasn't really about much, I just told her how glad I was that she called, and how I missed her and I planned to come over when I got off work. She was glad, and when I told her we were very busy at work, she felt bad and hoped it was okay. :)
After work, I headed over and when I first arrived she was asleep, but she must have JUST fallen asleep because she awoke very easily soon after I arrived, and we had a wonderful visit with a wonderful, realistic conversation. We talked about how badly I felt that this whole thing had happened, and how sometimes I wish I could switch places with her so she wouldn't have to be going through this. She said "I know you wish that, but wish it for a little while, and then be done. You can't, and it's okay, so don't worry." We talked about how it was ok to be sad about things, and that she WAS really sad for awhile, but now she knows it happened and we can't change it, so we have to stop being sad now and look ahead. Wow, she was REALLY clear about it, VERY positive and amazing. I told her about some of the details to make sure she was really oriented to what happened...she talked as though she was beginning to accept it and be ok with it...and that she thought I should be too...she even tried to use humor about it. When I was going through some of the gory details (if you really want to know, I will tell you privately but I don't necessarily think everyone would want to know, so I won't include it here), she tried to laugh about it a little bit, in an ironic sort of way. It amazes me how lately most of the time she is SO HER. I told her that for awhile after her accident, she was there but she wasn't THERE, and she said "I know, but I'm back now and I'm never leaving you again, damnit!" I told her I knew that, and that everyday she was doing better and better, especially lately. She acknowledged this, and said she could feel that she was. I was very honest with her, and told her she would not be the same person she was before, but that we were going to get her the closest to that person as possible, and that we all believed she could get most of the way there. She's amazing.
All in all, it was a great conversation, and really encouraged me in this journey we're on. I am having lunch with my friend Soni tomorrow, and then I will spend the afternoon with mom...I'm actually looking forward to tomorrow, which is an improvement on earlier this week. One never knows what next week will bring, but I'll try to take today for what it was and go from there. I'm so proud of mom's strength and spirit...she is doing SO well. Thank you all SO much for your continued support and love. Peace.
I try to give a different title to the blog everyday, and I already used TGIF, but...TGIF!!!!!! This week at work has been just horrendously busy, so I'm very glad to be done with it. One can only hope that next week will be better.
Mom called me during the day while I was at work...I LOVE it. She was in speech therapy this time, and actually when I answered the phone, it was Michelle, the therapist, and she told me mom wanted to call and say hi, but wanted Michelle to call and pretend she was mom. Then when mom got on the phone, she said "Hello..." in a really low voice. It was hilarious, and I said "Mom, is that you? Are you disguising your voice?" And she said "Yes, I'm disguising my voice!" So funny. We chatted for only a few minutes, it wasn't really about much, I just told her how glad I was that she called, and how I missed her and I planned to come over when I got off work. She was glad, and when I told her we were very busy at work, she felt bad and hoped it was okay. :)
After work, I headed over and when I first arrived she was asleep, but she must have JUST fallen asleep because she awoke very easily soon after I arrived, and we had a wonderful visit with a wonderful, realistic conversation. We talked about how badly I felt that this whole thing had happened, and how sometimes I wish I could switch places with her so she wouldn't have to be going through this. She said "I know you wish that, but wish it for a little while, and then be done. You can't, and it's okay, so don't worry." We talked about how it was ok to be sad about things, and that she WAS really sad for awhile, but now she knows it happened and we can't change it, so we have to stop being sad now and look ahead. Wow, she was REALLY clear about it, VERY positive and amazing. I told her about some of the details to make sure she was really oriented to what happened...she talked as though she was beginning to accept it and be ok with it...and that she thought I should be too...she even tried to use humor about it. When I was going through some of the gory details (if you really want to know, I will tell you privately but I don't necessarily think everyone would want to know, so I won't include it here), she tried to laugh about it a little bit, in an ironic sort of way. It amazes me how lately most of the time she is SO HER. I told her that for awhile after her accident, she was there but she wasn't THERE, and she said "I know, but I'm back now and I'm never leaving you again, damnit!" I told her I knew that, and that everyday she was doing better and better, especially lately. She acknowledged this, and said she could feel that she was. I was very honest with her, and told her she would not be the same person she was before, but that we were going to get her the closest to that person as possible, and that we all believed she could get most of the way there. She's amazing.
All in all, it was a great conversation, and really encouraged me in this journey we're on. I am having lunch with my friend Soni tomorrow, and then I will spend the afternoon with mom...I'm actually looking forward to tomorrow, which is an improvement on earlier this week. One never knows what next week will bring, but I'll try to take today for what it was and go from there. I'm so proud of mom's strength and spirit...she is doing SO well. Thank you all SO much for your continued support and love. Peace.
Comments