"Daughter guilt"
Hi Friends,
I was a waste of a human being today...I will admit I had one too many glasses of wine last night and woke up this morning feeling nauseous and with quite the headache. I spent most of the day on the couch feeling like crap and feeling so guilty for staying out last night and not being at RIC earlier today. When I told Betty about it tonight, she called it the "daughter guilt," which is a very apt name for it...I can't help feeling this guilt, no matter what I tell myself or what anyone else tells me, even mom. Thank goodness, Monica went to visit mom early this afternoon for a bit, and called me from RIC so I got to talk to mom...it was wonderful as usual to talk to her, and I apologized profusely for not being there earlier...I told her I wasn't feeling all that well because of last night, and that I felt really badly about it, and she of course told me it was perfectly okay and that she just wanted me to feel better and that if I got down there today I did and if I didn't, that was okay too. I assured her I'd be there later, and that I missed and loved her. :) Thanks again, Monica. I also heard from Lilly that she and Tiffany and Tiffany's sister had gone for a visit as well, so I felt much better knowing she'd had some visitors earlier.
Finally got a call this afternoon from the care manager giving me an update...insurance cleared her extended stay until her surgery, and it looks like they may also cover a skilled nursing facility for a little bit of time following the surgery...still not 100% sure about that, but the care manager supposedly plans to touch base with me again on Monday. We shall see.
I finally started feeling better and pulled myself off the couch, and got down to RIC around 5:30pm or so. Mom and I had a nice evening together just hanging out and we watched a movie, "The Illusionist." Mom fell asleep toward the end for about 20 minutes or so, but did wake up to watch the ending. I left around 10:00pm or so, after I helped her get all ready for bed. Tomorrow I plan to be much better, and get to RIC much earlier. She's so cute, I just love her so much.
Off to bed now, must be better tomorrow. Please keep the support and love coming, it truly helps me. Peace to all.
I was a waste of a human being today...I will admit I had one too many glasses of wine last night and woke up this morning feeling nauseous and with quite the headache. I spent most of the day on the couch feeling like crap and feeling so guilty for staying out last night and not being at RIC earlier today. When I told Betty about it tonight, she called it the "daughter guilt," which is a very apt name for it...I can't help feeling this guilt, no matter what I tell myself or what anyone else tells me, even mom. Thank goodness, Monica went to visit mom early this afternoon for a bit, and called me from RIC so I got to talk to mom...it was wonderful as usual to talk to her, and I apologized profusely for not being there earlier...I told her I wasn't feeling all that well because of last night, and that I felt really badly about it, and she of course told me it was perfectly okay and that she just wanted me to feel better and that if I got down there today I did and if I didn't, that was okay too. I assured her I'd be there later, and that I missed and loved her. :) Thanks again, Monica. I also heard from Lilly that she and Tiffany and Tiffany's sister had gone for a visit as well, so I felt much better knowing she'd had some visitors earlier.
Finally got a call this afternoon from the care manager giving me an update...insurance cleared her extended stay until her surgery, and it looks like they may also cover a skilled nursing facility for a little bit of time following the surgery...still not 100% sure about that, but the care manager supposedly plans to touch base with me again on Monday. We shall see.
I finally started feeling better and pulled myself off the couch, and got down to RIC around 5:30pm or so. Mom and I had a nice evening together just hanging out and we watched a movie, "The Illusionist." Mom fell asleep toward the end for about 20 minutes or so, but did wake up to watch the ending. I left around 10:00pm or so, after I helped her get all ready for bed. Tomorrow I plan to be much better, and get to RIC much earlier. She's so cute, I just love her so much.
Off to bed now, must be better tomorrow. Please keep the support and love coming, it truly helps me. Peace to all.
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