Still no plan
Hi Friends,
Had a long day at work today...not horribly busy but just long, so I'll be brief...not much to say anyway. Still no word from the insurance company re: coverage for an extended stay at RIC until the surgery vs. a skilled nursing facility paid for by them vs. nothing and therefore a Medicaid-covered facility, so will plan to call mom's care manager (Dinh is now on vacation, so I will call the person covering for him) tomorrow during work and try to find out what, if anything, they said today since he didn't call me with an update (grumble grumble). Hopefully tomorrow night I'll have some news for you, either way...I am going crazy not knowing and waiting till the last minute on this, literally...her discharge is potentially three days away!!! It is especially hard to try and answer questions about it at work, because everytime I think about how I don't know the plan, my anxiety level shoots through the roof. I know everyone is just being nice and showing their love and concern...but it is hard to answer those questions just the same.
Visited mom tonight after work...she was cute as usual, and we talked a lot about discharge planning, the difficulties I've been having with it, and the upcoming surgery. I wish I could remember exactly how this part of the conversation went exactly, but we were talkinig about life in general, and she said "Well, you know, one of these days you're going to have a man!" I told her at this point, I didn't have the time nor the energy to devote to meeting anyone and sustaining a relationship, and she said "Well, that is mostly because of me right now, right?" I said "Well, it's true that right now I'm devoting my energies to caring for you and making sure you get the best of everything you need, and that is my purpose and job right now." "You may not have the time or energy right now, but you will eventually," she said, smiling. I said "You think so?" and she replied "Oh yes, and then it will be you, your man, and me!" Hahahaha...I'm sure "my man" would love that, eh? I said "Yeah, and then maybe we'll have a baby!" She told me she'd love that, and had the feeling I might have a boy. I said I was surprised because she'd always told me she hoped I'd have a girl, and she said, "I know, but I'm just getting the feeling you'll have a boy. Either way, if it's a boy or if it's a girl, we'll love it just the same." No matter what she says, I'm becoming convinced I'll always be single...no time for that anymore, not with what my life has become...oh well, this is my life now...at least for the foreseeable future. I must just take it as it is.
Anyway, must go to sleep. Please, send all your prayers, love and good thoughts our way tomorrow (and always, but an extra concentration of them tomorrow) as I hopefully will find out our fate. Thanks to all of you...much love.
Had a long day at work today...not horribly busy but just long, so I'll be brief...not much to say anyway. Still no word from the insurance company re: coverage for an extended stay at RIC until the surgery vs. a skilled nursing facility paid for by them vs. nothing and therefore a Medicaid-covered facility, so will plan to call mom's care manager (Dinh is now on vacation, so I will call the person covering for him) tomorrow during work and try to find out what, if anything, they said today since he didn't call me with an update (grumble grumble). Hopefully tomorrow night I'll have some news for you, either way...I am going crazy not knowing and waiting till the last minute on this, literally...her discharge is potentially three days away!!! It is especially hard to try and answer questions about it at work, because everytime I think about how I don't know the plan, my anxiety level shoots through the roof. I know everyone is just being nice and showing their love and concern...but it is hard to answer those questions just the same.
Visited mom tonight after work...she was cute as usual, and we talked a lot about discharge planning, the difficulties I've been having with it, and the upcoming surgery. I wish I could remember exactly how this part of the conversation went exactly, but we were talkinig about life in general, and she said "Well, you know, one of these days you're going to have a man!" I told her at this point, I didn't have the time nor the energy to devote to meeting anyone and sustaining a relationship, and she said "Well, that is mostly because of me right now, right?" I said "Well, it's true that right now I'm devoting my energies to caring for you and making sure you get the best of everything you need, and that is my purpose and job right now." "You may not have the time or energy right now, but you will eventually," she said, smiling. I said "You think so?" and she replied "Oh yes, and then it will be you, your man, and me!" Hahahaha...I'm sure "my man" would love that, eh? I said "Yeah, and then maybe we'll have a baby!" She told me she'd love that, and had the feeling I might have a boy. I said I was surprised because she'd always told me she hoped I'd have a girl, and she said, "I know, but I'm just getting the feeling you'll have a boy. Either way, if it's a boy or if it's a girl, we'll love it just the same." No matter what she says, I'm becoming convinced I'll always be single...no time for that anymore, not with what my life has become...oh well, this is my life now...at least for the foreseeable future. I must just take it as it is.
Anyway, must go to sleep. Please, send all your prayers, love and good thoughts our way tomorrow (and always, but an extra concentration of them tomorrow) as I hopefully will find out our fate. Thanks to all of you...much love.
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xoxoxo!
Stef