Christmas Eve
Hi Friends,
Well, it doesn't really feel like Christmas Eve, especially because we didn't get the gift we wanted, which was for mom to be able to get a pass to leave for a little while and come home on Christmas. Because she hasn't yet been seen by the doctor because she was admitted on a Friday afternoon and it's the holiday now, they won't let her have a pass yet. So we'll be stuck celebrating Christmas there...I keep reminding myself and mom that we are so lucky to be able to celebrate together at all...it could be a very different circumstances, that's for sure. But it still sucks, to be blunt. I had to try with all my might today to be upbeat and cheerful, when all I felt like doing was crying...and we both did some of that as well, feeling sorry for ourselves a little bit. I was strong for her when she lost it, and she was strong for me when I did.
We didn't do much today, because there isn't much to do, but we did get to see a musical performance of Chtristmas music (two guitarists/singers who I guess come fairly regularly), and mom really enjoyed that...she really loves music. Pam came by in the afternoon...she has to work tomorrow on the holiday, so spent the weekend celebrating with her family and then came back into Chicago today...she brought mom a lovely Poinsettia for her room, which was nice...so what with the cute snowman decoration from Jillian, the gingerbread house we made, the plant, and some other decorations, it's very festive in mom's room.
This evening, I brought sushi from the place down the street (thank goodness it was open, that really would have thrown me over the edge), and we had a nice dinner...mom really enjoyed the sushi. :) Then we walked around for a bit, enjoyed the Christmas tree down on the first floor, and then headed back up to her room. I helped her get ready for bed, and then we read our tranditional Christmas Eve books together..."The Gift of the Magi" and "The Night Before Christmas." We've been doing it every year since I can remember, and I wasn't about to let that tradition go by the wayside.
Was very sad to leave tonight, and will be even sadder to wake up tomorrow morning by myself...it will be the very first Christmas morning of my whole life waking up without my mom there...even last year when we lived in separate apartments in the same city, I spent the night at her apartment so we'd wake up together...and we won't have our traditional breakfast. It really doesn't seem like Christmas. I really am thankful for everything we do have though, and I don't mean to sound ungrateful...I should stop feeling sorry for myself now, it's very unbecoming and bratty. Merry Christmas, and as Tiny Tim says, "God bless us, every one." Peace.
Well, it doesn't really feel like Christmas Eve, especially because we didn't get the gift we wanted, which was for mom to be able to get a pass to leave for a little while and come home on Christmas. Because she hasn't yet been seen by the doctor because she was admitted on a Friday afternoon and it's the holiday now, they won't let her have a pass yet. So we'll be stuck celebrating Christmas there...I keep reminding myself and mom that we are so lucky to be able to celebrate together at all...it could be a very different circumstances, that's for sure. But it still sucks, to be blunt. I had to try with all my might today to be upbeat and cheerful, when all I felt like doing was crying...and we both did some of that as well, feeling sorry for ourselves a little bit. I was strong for her when she lost it, and she was strong for me when I did.
We didn't do much today, because there isn't much to do, but we did get to see a musical performance of Chtristmas music (two guitarists/singers who I guess come fairly regularly), and mom really enjoyed that...she really loves music. Pam came by in the afternoon...she has to work tomorrow on the holiday, so spent the weekend celebrating with her family and then came back into Chicago today...she brought mom a lovely Poinsettia for her room, which was nice...so what with the cute snowman decoration from Jillian, the gingerbread house we made, the plant, and some other decorations, it's very festive in mom's room.
This evening, I brought sushi from the place down the street (thank goodness it was open, that really would have thrown me over the edge), and we had a nice dinner...mom really enjoyed the sushi. :) Then we walked around for a bit, enjoyed the Christmas tree down on the first floor, and then headed back up to her room. I helped her get ready for bed, and then we read our tranditional Christmas Eve books together..."The Gift of the Magi" and "The Night Before Christmas." We've been doing it every year since I can remember, and I wasn't about to let that tradition go by the wayside.
Was very sad to leave tonight, and will be even sadder to wake up tomorrow morning by myself...it will be the very first Christmas morning of my whole life waking up without my mom there...even last year when we lived in separate apartments in the same city, I spent the night at her apartment so we'd wake up together...and we won't have our traditional breakfast. It really doesn't seem like Christmas. I really am thankful for everything we do have though, and I don't mean to sound ungrateful...I should stop feeling sorry for myself now, it's very unbecoming and bratty. Merry Christmas, and as Tiny Tim says, "God bless us, every one." Peace.
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I just finished wrapping presents for my kids (at 12am!) and was thinking of you. So know that you are not alone this Christmas, you have many friends that care about you! I am sorry you are not able to bring Bev home for Christmas. Whether you are at home or not, Christmas is what you make of it. And I know you and your mom will have a very special Christmas!!!
All my love,
Julie Mc