Nerves
Hi Friends,
It's late and I need to go to bed, so I'll try to be brief. Worked today, it was busy but not horrible. Jillian and Monica went to visit mom over lunch, and called me so I could talk to mom, which was awesome as usual...she's so cute. No more flare-ups of the issue with the arm today that I was told about, so that's good. Of course went over after work to visit, and we had a nice chat...we talked more about the upcoming surgery, and she acted very nervous about it. I told her it was on Friday morning, and she kept verifying that..."So, it's on Friday morning? Now, what's today again?" She asked if it would be good, and I was reassuring her that her surgeon is good, that he knows her from her first surgery, and that all would be fine. I was of course reassuring myself in the process, but I must put on a brave face for her. We talked more about her recovery, and I told her she was absolutely going to get better, and she agreed. I reminded her that the other night she promised me I'd only have to go through one Christmas like this, and that by next year she said she'd be back on her feet and I expected Christmas dinner on the table as usual. :) She agreed, and I reminded her that I need her, to be my mom and get better so she could resume "taking care of me." I really feel like she needs some goals such as this, and feeling needed is always a good motivation...something I talked about with my psychologist and which I think is a good thought.
All in all a good conversation, and very lucid. She wanted me to get home before the snow got worse, and since I have to work tomorrow, I left around 8:30pm. Betty is arriving tomorrow!!! Yay!!! I sincerely hope the weather does not delay her flight...but I think it will be okay by then, since she doesn't fly until the late afternoon. I have been scrambling to make the apartment somewhat presentable, though I'm afraid I have let my housekeeping skills go these last couple months...it's not horrible, but it could certainly use a lot more work. Oh well, I'm not going to stress about it too much...we all know I have never been an extremely neat person, and with all that is going on, it's a wonder it looks as good as it does. It could be worse. ;) At least the dishes are done and the floor is swept. And now off to bed.
For all those in the midst of this winter weather, please drive/travel safely. Thanks all for your continued thoughts, love and prayers...as Friday draws nearer, we need you all more than ever. Peace and love to you.
It's late and I need to go to bed, so I'll try to be brief. Worked today, it was busy but not horrible. Jillian and Monica went to visit mom over lunch, and called me so I could talk to mom, which was awesome as usual...she's so cute. No more flare-ups of the issue with the arm today that I was told about, so that's good. Of course went over after work to visit, and we had a nice chat...we talked more about the upcoming surgery, and she acted very nervous about it. I told her it was on Friday morning, and she kept verifying that..."So, it's on Friday morning? Now, what's today again?" She asked if it would be good, and I was reassuring her that her surgeon is good, that he knows her from her first surgery, and that all would be fine. I was of course reassuring myself in the process, but I must put on a brave face for her. We talked more about her recovery, and I told her she was absolutely going to get better, and she agreed. I reminded her that the other night she promised me I'd only have to go through one Christmas like this, and that by next year she said she'd be back on her feet and I expected Christmas dinner on the table as usual. :) She agreed, and I reminded her that I need her, to be my mom and get better so she could resume "taking care of me." I really feel like she needs some goals such as this, and feeling needed is always a good motivation...something I talked about with my psychologist and which I think is a good thought.
All in all a good conversation, and very lucid. She wanted me to get home before the snow got worse, and since I have to work tomorrow, I left around 8:30pm. Betty is arriving tomorrow!!! Yay!!! I sincerely hope the weather does not delay her flight...but I think it will be okay by then, since she doesn't fly until the late afternoon. I have been scrambling to make the apartment somewhat presentable, though I'm afraid I have let my housekeeping skills go these last couple months...it's not horrible, but it could certainly use a lot more work. Oh well, I'm not going to stress about it too much...we all know I have never been an extremely neat person, and with all that is going on, it's a wonder it looks as good as it does. It could be worse. ;) At least the dishes are done and the floor is swept. And now off to bed.
For all those in the midst of this winter weather, please drive/travel safely. Thanks all for your continued thoughts, love and prayers...as Friday draws nearer, we need you all more than ever. Peace and love to you.
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